Help me forget

Few days back I wanted to make my crush smile and I made a poem for her. I sent it to her saying: “a little attention from me for you”. I meant it in a good way, didn’t mean anything. She took it probably like confession of my feelings. And she said: she appreciate that but I should focus on someone who deserve my attention a feelings. I said: you aren’t to me anyone less or someone not enough. She said she doesn’t feel it back the same way. I said “yes I know that’s why I last time asking you out to get each other know better. (She said maybe someday we can.) But if you are not truly interested just say so. Your answers are kinda unclear. I would like to hear literally Im not Interested. It’s okay, or won’t break me. So she said so, literally. And I answered: “Good. Thanks. I appreciate your honesty.” And that’s all.

With what I need a help is moving on. Of course it hurts but yea I’m taking it like an adult. It’s not the pain I need help with. But it’s hard for me to think about her still. She’s always on my mind. And my desire for her still here. It makes hard for me to focus during day in regular activities.

Thanks for any advice. ❤️