A really bad night after binge drinking has made me want to stop drinking, hopefully for good.

So I have visited this subreddit quite a few times over the past few years I have been binge drinking. I started drinking at 16, but then more heavily at 17. When I turned about 17, that is when my binge drinking had started. Since all we could get at that age were handles of vodka, etc. without getting caught, I remember I would take shots after shots with my friends at home, and something about the feeling of getting so messed up made me want to continue doing it.

Well I’m 24 now, going to be 25 soon, and something happened recently that has made me just decide that I think I am just done for good. What is sad is that this certain situation was the icing on the cake, but I have had so many other situations happen that should have been my breaking point. I was talking to a friend, and I told her I could probably make a list of 200-300 things I have done while binge drinking that I am not proud of and regret. Once I could go out in public drink when I turned 21, I think thats when it became a major problem. Anyways, here I am after my significant other got arrested after a night of us binge drinking, and I couldn’t even remember what happened to us.

Recently, I have been blacking out a lot in the past couple of years, and although it has been concerning to me, I just keep on doing it. Sometimes I drink maybe 1-2 drinks (mostly on weekdays), but when the weekend hits, I drink over 10 drinks almost every single time. It’s like I never learn, and every morning I wake up after a binge, I have to ask people if I did anything concerning, or they just tell me that I did. It’s got me feeling pretty ashamed with myself, and I am tired of feeling that way.

Anyways, I guess I am just coming here for support if anyone has been in similar situations, or if anyone at all just has some advice for me while I am going through this. I am proud of anyone on here who has quit drinking for good, and the people who are considering it. I know its going to be tough especially cause mostly everyone I am around drinks. If I continue down this road though, I feel like something even worse could happen after what has recently occurred. But it has been about a week since I have drank, and I am actually feeling pretty good. I am about to start 75 hard, for those of you who know what it is, to hold me accountable.

Thank you all for reading, and I hope maybe this helps anyone else who is in a similar place. Any advice or words of encouragement are appreciated.