I'm a hikikomori because I'm ugly and don't know what to do

On the one hand, I want to have a normal life but on the other hand, I'm just not comfortable being around people looking the way that I do, knowing that my life will be a certain way because people see me a certain way. I also need to work somehow to move out from my parent's house but just can't because of this.

I also struggle with being a failure and stop caring about life because of both my looks as well as the circumstances I was born into. Wish there was a way to at least be hiki for free and have my own place