Crisis

I applied to ashoka in r1 and I got rejected after interview bc i was not in a mental state to perform my best at the interview (my father was suffering from liver failure).

I have no one to feed me food for the next year (orphan), is there a way I can somehow atleast audit the classes there at Ashoka working part time maybe, anything will work. I just want education and food.

I can't do gap because I only have like 20k left.

My 12th boards did not go well (i would just pass 40-45%).

Please help me.