My mom 43f admited to wanting to fuck her son 20m part 2

Go read part one otherwise this won’t make any sense it was too long . But I’m the son I’m 20 my mom is 43

But I distinctly remember one time when I was in the kitchen making crepes now the kitchen is pretty big and not right beside the office it’s beside the living room which is behind the office so basically I didn’t have a direct line of sight so I could just throw on my headphones and make food which I’ve always loved. But that one day the guy she was with apparently got thirsty so he came out fully naked and hard and he’s the only one guy that my mom brought home I ever interacted with but not by choice because he didn’t know my mom had a son so he immediately went back in grabbed his clothes and left so my mom hit me repeatedly while she was naked on the kitchen floor. That memory sucked. But anyway at this point in the current situation I’m in my room for a while just trying to forget that image when I finally get up to go pee. The bathroom is just across the hall from my room in the basement. But I come out and my mom is waiting in a bathrobe tellling me she’s sorry but she won’t change the way she feels and has struggled with seeing a man who doesn’t want her and just needs to fuck me. I don’t respond I go pee then go back in my room without saying another word to her. This was a few days ago now and I still haven’t spoken to her but I want to because I love her and don’t want this to ruin or relationship I’m just too scared.