Should I feel bad for her being in jail?

I feel so horrible . She’s back in jail. Fourth time she’s been arrested within six months for beating the shit out of me( plus this time a protective order violation) But this time I’ve really had it with the hypocrisy , how she has a different set of rules than me, and obviously the punches and scratches and biting . I wanted so desperately to believe there was a good person in there . And maybe there is. But she doesn’t want to quit drinking , she doesn’t want to address her problems . She just wants to use me like an ATM and a punching bag. I’ve been clean for a few years now and have been considering going out and finding what I need to overdose on. I’ve asked her to leave . Which she’d beat the shit out of me for asking . I’m tired of sleeping in vehicles . Missing work bc I had the shit beat out of me all night the night before . I love her . She doesn’t have anyone else really. My ego believes she needs me. I pray she gets the help she needs . But tonight I know I can sleep well, I can relax and not walk on egg shells . I’m not longer a prisoner in my home . I broke my back for her. I bent over backwards . Phone vehicles clothes fancy dinners wine she didn’t need to work. I did not everything just to try to make her happy. I get beat and then demonized for it . I know she’s going somewhere uncomfortable. And she may be there a while. I feel like I’m breaking a promise to God. To her . I can not take the abuse anymore. I prayed for a way out. And tonight my prayers were answered. I watched her fight and scream as the police pushed her into their cruiser . My neighbors congratulated me for “ finally pulling the trigger “. I’ve having so many mixed emotions . I feel sorry for her . She had chance after chance . I warned and warned her I had had enough. I offered to bring her back to family. I told her I’d keep funding her life. Just to leave. But she responded with fist. And then when my face had accumulated enough evidence I made the decision and called the police. It’s finally over . She’s lost me and all I had to give . She’ll be in jail a decent amount of time. She’ll probably become a felon. And she’ll never have the life I gave her again. She’ll have to work a job to own a phone , to drive a vehicle she can call hers, etc. and I’ve doubled all my belongings . She may find another man to abuse . Idk. Maybe this will finally be a wake

Up call. Who knows . But this is my rant and vent