I Avoid Women

Im a fairly tall, bald, up in age, black guy. I've never harmed anyone that didnt try to harm me. All I do is work and go home. I feel like society doesnt want me outside. Especially women. Like its against the law for me to speak to women judging by the look on their face with a simple "good morning". You know the look. The disgusted fake smile and quick skidattle to further distance. These days if I see women in grocery isles where im shopping I'll go somewhere else to not cause them to react fearfully. If I need to speak to them unavoidably like work I have my hands behind my back and I stand at least 5 ft away. I'll hold open doors but with no eye contact. I know the stigma towards black men and I accept the fact that no matter where I go im going to be looked upon as a troublemaker. All my life people tense up around me. It makes me feel unwanted in society. Some will think well why dont you go around other blacks. Because to be honest living amongst other blacks is hell. I dont like living among people in general that promote stupid and crime. All the excuses. All the short tempers. All the unnecessary aggression. Thats no way to live. Then it gets cycled generation after generation. And I cant blame other people for wanting to distance themselves when im around. Because my people prove to them everyday why its best to just avoid all of us.