Another weekend

Another weekend going by with the hope that he’ll want me. Hoping he’d have the urge to kiss me or touch me. I walked into our room and he was in just his boxers and he felt embarrassed…my heart sank. I’m so attracted to him and I can’t even have him because he doesn’t want me. He says he just doesn’t think about it due to how stressed out he is. Now he’s sleeping soundly next to me while I’m trying to cover my crying. I keep looking at myself in the mirror trying to figure out what could possibly be wrong with me

Now he’s applying for a job that would require him to be away from home all week. Only coming home during the weekends. I can’t help but think about how bad that will be for our relationship. We’re basically roommates now so what happens when we’re long distance.