I'm done with God

I'm not saying out of hate but out of hopelessness from the very God i believed.

And I find no difference between God and a drunk man,

A drunk man runs away from responsibilities and god forgot to ensure what would be his role when he would create this mess (the world), so there's no role in this world which he plays, every role that he should play is being played by earthly gods ( the powerfuls)

A drunk man beats his wife because she does not obey him while he is drunk, and god punishes everyone because he is not offered prayers,

An alcoholic father is million miles away from understanding his own children because all he cares is he should have enough supply of what make him happy (alcohol), if his children asks him to listen and observe what they are going through he asks them its your life live with, and god when he is asked to intervene or at least make things easy for the one who are suffering, he says life is a test, so live with it

A drunk man is narcissist. He only cares whether his needs are met or not, even if there's nothing on table to eat for his children. And God, he himself says ' I was a hidden treasure I wanted to be known so i created humans'. Just because he wanted to be known so he created a never ending chain of suffering. How that is different from an alcoholic narcissist.

The true part is the most hurt people by an alcoholic man are the most closest to him and the most hurt people by god are those who seek to find him. he hurts those the most who try to find him and comforts those who don't even regard him.

An alcoholic man is respectful to those who show him his limits and he is disrespectful to those who respect him (his closest). And god bestows those who disregard him and don't rely on him. He asks for patience from those who rely on him and call upon him in every situation they find troubling, he calls it a test.

I have lots of other problems with god

I can never see him then why he has created eyes,

I can never imagine his image then why he has created imagination,

I can never understand him then why he has created understandings.

I can never listen to how he speaks in nature then why he has created hearings.

He is so vast that he cannot fit in his creation. Out of time, space, and matter then how he claims to reside in my heart.

He creates humans with all those deadly desires ( ego, lust, rage, jealousy, gluttony, envy, and cruelty)

Places all of that in humans and gives them free will. And then he will test humans and punish them if they use any of these.

Just imagine, who would you question if an all knowing and mature man gives a loaded gun to a and gives permission to roam in the house and play. Who would the law hold responsible if all the family members are dead?

And I find it funny when he says Do they not observe what beauty I have created. What beauty? Your most highly regarded creation, higher than every other creation you ever created and you will ever create, higher than jinns, angles, and animals, are humans. He calls them his signs of intelligence...

In fact they are the ones who have caused Chaos all over the place, an intelligent being does that?

His worst creation are humans,,, even if some of them are best but how would you rate apple company if 99 percentage of their phones were totally a disaster and only one percent were best on the planet?