I feel so unlovable. I have this stupid coworker that I have a crush on. He’s cute and funny and he makes me laugh every time he’s around, but he will never see me as someone who he could ever like. 

For context I am stuck in manmoding. I will likely die that way but I digress, I was out getting drinks with my coworkers when this guy started jokingly flirting with me. He was drunk so I don’t think he meant it and later he said he was kidding and he isn’t interested in men. 

It’s so weird to be around him because he doesn’t understand why I would be uncomfortable, he just sees me as another guy to hang out with. God I wish I had killed myself like I wanted to years ago 

I am such a fucking 🚬 holy fuck. Ever time he talks to me I get so many butterflies but he will never see me as something other than just a man. 

I am not enough of a man for women, but not enough of a woman for most men. I’m just a fucking mistake. 

I worked with this one girl and I know she had a crush on me. She would look up at me with these bright eyes and I felt awful because I knew she was wanting me to be something I couldn’t. 

I want love I want to feel something I want someone to touch me and hug me. I feel so tired I wish I could just lobotomize myself and become a drone and just do what others needed from me. I hate being this disgusting amalgamation of personal failures. 

Yearning is fucking miserable and a trap