We were together from 14-19

I can't text them anymore so instead i'll post little snippets of what i want to say to him here. The breakup was very unexpected to me, and they stated dating someone else 3 months later. I could go on for hours about it all but i won't for now.

❗️Small mention of sh❗️

i love and miss you so much. It's been 6 months since you left me and i think of you every single day to the point it makes me nauseous. I keep thinking about how your 20 in a month, i want to go to the beach with you and plan your party. We were meant to do this together.

i'm trying so fucking hard to move on from you. I spoke to a friend the other day about how we don't think we believe in unconditional love, but i think I do because I think I unconditionally love you. But you don't love me. I keep thinking about how loved I used to feel from you, but how can that have been love? if you truly love someone how can ever stop? how can you abandon them?

I went the whole of march without contacting you and it literally put me in the hospital because if I didn't hurt myself I wouldn't been able to resist cycling to your flat and banging on your door. I don't know how i am meant to do this for the rest of my life. I dream of you every night, i dread going to sleep because i know that when i wake up I will feel the loss of you all over again.

I can't do this without you, please come back to me angel, i'd do anything for you.