Married FTM wants to try cock

FTM married to a woman for 10 years. Transitioned while dating but always been male during marriage. I never got to try cock before we got together. Prior to 3-4 years ago, I was never interested in men. One day I used a dildo and came. Ever since I've wanted some cock. My wife and I are very husband wife. I'm dominate in the bedroom and very much enjoy the sea we have. I've brought up wanting to be penetrated and she is not interested in doing so. Even if she was, I wouldn't want it. I want a man. A hard throbbing cock. Someone to take charge and teach me how to take cock. Cum in my pussy. Something she could never provide. At the same time I love her. I want my cake and eat it too.