idk

i hope this makes sense to anyone reading but i really want to stop cutting. like real badly. i noticed recently how cutting doesnt just effect me, but the others around me. well obvi. but i got into a srs relationship recently. i told him abt how i use to cut. a bit after i told him about my recent relapse. his reaction is what made me realize, this effects him indirectly. i felt terrible.. he said that he felt like he couldve been better, he couldve done something to prevent it. i told him that it had NOTHING to do with him since the relapse was due to a trigger that i was triggred by. i keep getting the urges and i dont want to give into them. I wanna better myself, for myself, but mainly for him. this is mainly js a lil rant but hey ill take any advice if anyone has any🤷‍♀️