I NB25 am tired of always having to be the one to initiate with my partner F26

tofay a problem happened where she F26 cancelled our first plan because she was feeling sick and we had a next plan of going to a pool. I NB 25 unknowingly assumed that she can’t go there anymore because she’s sick. and I texted I’m going somewhere. she just replied normal. I came back home and was told that I cancelled the plan without telling her in advance. I told her that I had assumed what had happened and that I never thoufht I was cancelling.

all in all, this time was bad that I cancelled no matter my reason. but the problem is this has continued for so long.. pattern where it’s needed of me to ask, ask, ask everything without her not having to ask.

like the convo could have gone as simple as ”I’m going somewhere”

she “what about our plans”

me” I thought u csnt go anymore cus ur sick”

she”no I can still go”

me“ let’s do it!”

bjt no it has to become my fault that I didn’t ask. and I explained properly what had happened apologized that I cancelled and said all I asked is to get her acknowledgement on any shape and form that she knows that I did not cancel on purpose. but no I got no real response. no response at all.

it has continued for many years where similar situations put me in the bad person position.

how do I approach thsi to her?

im tired