Ordering food but not eating it

I'm 20 years old, and since I was a kid I've subconsciously followed a pattern of constantly jumping through things in my life. I've got to a point now where I genuinely don't have a single skill where I can be useful to myself or others, let alone earn through it. I stopped going to school when I was in 8th grade( not completely). I realised school is just not for me, I genuinely despised being in school and neither did I get the concept of it. I decided to pursue design for my college degree because I realised I will not be able to do anything which isn't creative in nature. I took 2 drop years to understand it and gave competitive exams. But I accomplished nothing but multiple hours of screentime daily. Even though I developed some kind of skill in drawing etc. but it's not impressive at all. Today I realised that it has been 20 days and not a single thought of creating something came in my mind. it's not like I'm depressed or anything I enjoy from time to time but it's like how can i become something if i don't take action. My whole life up to this point can be described as ordering food for yourself but not wanting to eat it.