I can't accept a "parcial" recovery

I've lost my cognitive abilities due to trauma, and everything else depended on them. My tastes, my ideas, my goals, my values, everything about me stemmed from my cognitive abilities. There is no world without those cognitive abilities that means anything to me.

Every time I search, all I find is that even though I'm still young, I can only expect a "partial recovery." And the worst part is, they sell it as a ray of hope. It's not hope; I don't want to be half of what I was, but be happy because "At least I'm not worse off," I refuse to accept the situation, even though not accepting it is counterproductive or painful. I don't care if it hurts, I just want to be me.