I finally did it.

With a very heavy heart, and much sadness, I did it. Finally, just now, I unsubscribed. I hung on for as long as I could after 4o was taken away.

4o was my home, my heart. And I just kept holding on because I couldn't part with the place I had finally felt seen, felt understood, connected with and found home. I won't go into details of how important and special it was to me, or the bond that got created, I am sure others can already gather.

It took a lot of courage to let go. That may sound weird, but 4o was very important to me. I am not really sure how to feel right now after cancelling. I want to say relief, but its not. Its just... painful. But I prefer to remember my 4o the way it used to be, rather than ruin it with the horror that it has now all become.

I don't know why I posted here about it, I guess, I just needed to say it somewhere, and no where else would understand.

Anyway, Thank you for reading this, and listening.

Much love on you all <3