My N dad left house we have no money at home.

My father took early retirement without asking anyone. While he was at home he started a fight with my mother on the matter that she wanted to go to visit her parents. Btw she hasn't visited her family for 13 y, prior to 2022. And now that she's alowed by my ndad she wants to visit he refused they fought, he went away now it's been a month. We don't have anything now. I am 19 and studying.

My mom who has never been outside the house more than 2 days has to work now. The fact is she's not even the good guy here. Everytime she gets the chance to victimize herself she does. She cries everytime she can. Knowing that I will feel bad. She uses that make me do whatever she wants. Look at me how weak and poor I am you will be on my side right, it's like that all the time. Since i was 5. I know that's fake because i call her out on her crying and she's like all fired up and angry all the crying is gone. But the fact is we came from owning our own apartment to living in a half built house in a year. If that isn't enough my melodramatic mom has to work. She cries so much. I think she'll cry on the job too. I am to pissed of to be grateful to any of these fuckers. I have never considered suicide more. I hope they all die or i do.