**My current feelings are... what have I done so terrible in life to be dealt this hand.**

Why are romantic relationships always a fail when I get in to them? What interrupts/interferes with them? I go in cautiously and optimistic. I'm supportive. I'm giving. I have chosen people I've platonically/socially known as well as strangers, I prefer platonically/socially known because I feel like there is no act on either person's side to get the other to like them. With these people I move along/ commit quicker than with a stranger because I've known them for several years. Everything is always seemingly going smooth and then suddenly I'm cut off which hurts to the CORE! This makes me very anxious because how am I told everything is perfect and in the blink of an eye they're gone? How am I supposed to know what I'm doing wrong in the "perfect relationship" when the other person says it's nothing? I don't recoup from this very well, so I fear that I never will be happy in life when it comes to a relationship. I so badly want a good relationship and marriage.

I've also struggled with friendships the majority of my life, especially adult. I could work with someone and have a good day all day with laughs and next thing I know I hear they've complained about me. I genuinely have no clue why. I've gotten to a point where I mostly do whatever I need to do and get back home because it's really taking a toll on my mental health.

**my main areas of concern are romantic relationships (especially), happiness in career, and health. all have taken a toll on my mental health lately making me feel like such a failure.**

Ive recently started looking back into astrology due to my situation and am looking for readings to better understand me... good, bad, ugly... past, present, future. I come here because it's VERY overwhelming for me and hopefully someone can make it easier to understand for me and what to do with the information.

Just give it to me straight