I hate holidays and bank holidays

I hate holidays, there’s always an expectation for me to see her. Then even worse, in the UK we have bank holidays usually after a national holiday. So while everyone else is buzzing there’s another day off work or a long weekend, it’s absolutely my least favourite thing.

Any day off work for her is seen as “her day”. It’s a day to “spend time with family”. But by family, she means her exclusively.

I have to see her every Sunday. I don’t enjoy Friday or Saturday nights anymore because I know Sunday is coming.

My new boyfriend invited me round to his family’s for Sunday dinner, my mum still wants me to go round afterwards. I’m young, I want to go out with my friends, I want to be around my boyfriend’s nice family, I want to be asked questions about myself and my life without it being “information gathering”. I haven’t told my boyfriend yet I’ll still have to see her after, he doesn’t know she’s got mental health issues, so I’ll probably just appear rude.

I’ve lost a few partners because of her, or it’s at least caused strain on the relationship.

I just want a normal mum.