38 [M4F] #England/Online - looking for a mean, dominant female friend

I love the idea of being owned but I've always been bad at the commitment part, at staying obedient and submissive 24/7, so what I'm hoping now to find instead is something more casual but still long-term.

I'm thinking something that's more of a friendship or fwb I guess, who can sometimes order me around and give me tasks, but who the rest of the time we just chat largely as friends. However, I would ideally want you to be casually mean and insulting to me even when we just chat, and perhaps I'd still refer to you as Mistress or Goddess etc.

As you probably guessed by my desire for someone mean, I adore being degraded and humiliated, through things like verbal abuse, being laughed at/treated as inferior, body writing, being kept naked, having to eat from a dog bowl, watersports, piss, puke, intoxication, cigarette play, and more (though it's fine if you're not into all of that).

I'm also into bondage, extreme deepthroating, moderate pain, mild crossdressing, calorie restrictions, and general rules. However, I'm not into scat or ass play, and - if playing online - wouldn't want to show my face until I trust you.

I'm happy for this dynamic to either be purely online or in-person too, and outside of kink I enjoy movies, travel, video games, board games, reading, hiking, and more.