i just want the pain to stop

i'm dealing with chronic pain and illness.

i'm homebound now and my pain has been at an unbearable level for weeks now.

my only thought is escaping this never ending suffering and torment.

the only family i have left is my mom, who takes care of me, and i feel like shit about it bc i should be caring for her in her old age instead of her caring for me.

this is just constant pain and suffering, it's torment and i don't know how much more i can physically or mentally cope with.