Though you don't exist you deserve everything

I have already had direct experience that I'm the only conscious being in existence. Despite this I feel like everyone else deserves absolute paradise, the best possible reality.

I wouldn't mind if I was ill all the time but everyone else was thriving, I'd be content. I want the absolute fulfillment of the images that appear in consciousness. The appearances in consciousness are truly precious. To see everyone happy would bring me no greater joy.