I feel like I'm an afterthought

I think I try my best naman to show up for others, check in from time to time, send food when I know they're busy reviewing, listen, etc....why do I feel like it's not enough and na I'm still hard to love. I didn't do those things to keep count, for reciprocation or to be loved and I promise i don't usually ask these things but in times like these where I just really feel alone and not really loved....I wonder what about me makes it easier for others to not show up for, to let me be strong alone. I know I'm often seen as strong but I would really like some support too. Sa simula pa lang, I think I've been vulnerable enough naman by sharing how I have been struggling in the middle of that situation (family medical situation) so I think I've been open naman about it. Kaso for 2 months wala talaga nagfollow up or reach out, meron isa pero only to ask info about sa isang event HAHA kahit sa mismong usapan na yun wala din :(( and our GC is business as usual naman ( except sa I've been inactive). I understand that everyone is busy and has their own problems too, all I'm yearning for is just a genuine na 'kumusta na?" and a listening ear. For a circle of friends na more than 10 years na, am I asking for too much? I feel like in the past situations where someone actually does ask about me, it's always an afterthought. Yung parang tinanong lang kasi may hinihinging advice o kaya may kailangan. Anyway ramblings lang baka OA lang talaga ako asnksnkjjnskjd idk might delete this din