*UPDATE* i need to get over a coworker but i don’t know how?

[For anyone who didn’t see the original post]
I’ve basically had a small crush (or what I now think is limerence tbh) on a guy I work with. (For reference I'm 23F he is 21M). We had a few shifts where we actually clicked and had really good conversations, but since then nothing’s really happened. No texting, no hanging out, just occasional chats at work and me overthinking it.

Anyway, I have a bit of an update and it’s made me look at things a bit differently.

The whole plan I had to pick up a shift he’s working (since I won’t be seeing him for a while) has kind of fallen through. Turns out he’s been giving away way more of his shifts than I thought, so even if I try to pick one up, there’s a high chance he just won’t even be there.

I also heard from a few people that he’s been backing me a bit at work, like making sure I get some of his shifts when he leaves because he promised them to me. I do appreciate that, it’s actually really nice of him. But I’m also not trying to read into it too much because it could literally just be him being a decent person.

So right now I feel like I’ve landed on two possibilities:

Either there was some level of interest there at one point, but not enough for him to actually do anything about it
or I’ve completely misread the situation and it was never that deep to begin with

And honestly, I think I’m starting to lean more towards the second one.

I will say though, I do get that I probably played a part in it going nowhere. I wasn’t the easiest to read and I definitely shut down a few moments that could’ve gone somewhere, so if he did lose interest at some point, that wouldn’t surprise me.

At the same time, I think I was hoping we’d at least get more chances to work together and just see if anything naturally built from that, but that just hasn’t happened.

If anything, it feels like he’s just over this job and wants to leave, which I completely understand. So I’m trying not to take that personally.

I’m still a bit in my head about it, but I do feel like I’m starting to come out of it and see it more for what it actually is instead of what it could’ve been.

Oh well. Probably for the best tbh.