Hey yall imma get a little personal here and just spill the beans. Ive been abused my father in the past and a little still to this day with emotional and verbal. But unfortunately its very hard to overcome not for myself but help that person. I was not in a very good place always directing my energy time spent thinking and forcing a thought of anger and hatred towards my father on how he treated me my sister and my mom and other family members. I learned to grow off of that feeded hatred and towards and learned about myself. What makes me so unique that a person would be so ugly towards the people whom he lives and helps take care of. As a big family on both parts of my family and us back then being really close always hanging out having cookouts every other weekend i saw that people really gravitated towards me every since i was young and even in the first photo not looking so approachable or attractive. I was very good at video games and no matter the house i went to or others coming over to play the game with. Fifa smash bros mario kart i was always first or always stuck on the stick while others even grown ups would try their hand at me to see if they could win! I found a self of belonging with myself and saw that even if one person doesnt seem to like me or perceive me doesnt mean that world does! I saw this and ran with it. I dont have to be in the presence of my abuser mentally or physcially. Postivity shapes how your muscles work in your face and people can fell that energy if facing without hearing your voice. Being such a postive person being kind helping others when and where i could being around those who saw me as i belonged in their household or their group of freinds or even later in my years just mainly having online friends who always wanted to game with me rise the leaderboards helped me keep away from something that wasnt healthy and trauma bonding with a person that isnt at school with me work on or the game with me and just having fun with those that are around even through my headset or the speakers. Dont get snagged by toxicity and let it drown you into a beautiful being you are meant to be! Being positive is a lot harder than being negative and as a gamer that suited me well. 

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