[M4A] Fuck it, I want to go gay for Black men

This year, I really want to accept this and go all the way. I'm struggling to accept it, but I want to. I don't think I can escape the thoughts I'm having. It feels like I think about it more and more, flirting with a real man, going home with him, letting him have his way with me...

I'm trying to build up the courage to do it for real! I've been watching a ton of hypno lately to try and help. I need to try it, I need to sleep with a Black man.

I'd love to chat with anyone, help me go gay. Encourage me, embarrass me, whatever you want! Hope to see you soon!