Hey 👋🏿 guys,

Would like to share some reflections:

One thing I have been learning is that

Raising the Christ oil it take extreme discipline and patience.

I have been observing my monthly lunar cycle, eating vegan alkaline diet been doing that for a few months now not just this month. Sometimes I mess up on diet, sometimes my mind wasn't in right place sometimes I'd be taken by external situations, basically each time there's always something that I realized I overlooked or didn't do properly or did too much or was expecting too much but each time I take note and adjust as I become more intune with my mind and body is becoming easier to understand what's happening inside me

I have been celibate for about 2 years or so. Last few months now began practicing meditation mindfulness healthy eating, spending time in nature, etc.

At the beginning it was rough  mentally to say the least, but I  stuck with it and stayed consistent to the best of my abilities. And I'm glad I stuck with this far because my mind and body is regenerating feels like like my whole system is restoring specially my nervous system. I also find I understand my body and mind connection and actually listen to what's happening inside me without emotions or doubts.

So as I was observing my monthly sun cycle and unfortunately this time ended up having nocturnal emission 😢.

Things I have noticed recently as my overall health and my nervous system is stabilizing: strength, clarity better digestion, healthier  reaction to all kinds of toughts, and major thing morning wood very often something I did not expericed for a while so I think testosterone level is increasing because of my practices. 

But as per the nocturnal  emission, no sure what I'm missing but. Last night I have this feeling that I might be eating a bit too much even if it was just a small bowl of soup, I think next time I might just fast or not eat in the evening.

I also have this pressure in my head that has been building for sometime in the middle of my forehead and expanding tru my whole head. Seems like I channeled that energy there and I like to circulate in my whole as it becomes uncomfortable maybe I should slowdown my meditation practices, I don't know 🤔 

Actually I just remembered one time I was feeling the same thing went and sat by a tree with my hands on the ground during meditation and the pressure went down from my head to the ground I will try and do that again.

Christ oil/seamen retention