Nutella, Oreos, and chocolate milk from a local dairy!!!

Growing up I never actually had a “best friend” but I always at least had friends. As I got older that circle of friends grew smaller and smaller and now I’m 23 and the only person I regularly talk to outside of my family is my boyfriend. Not to be shallow but I miss talking to other girls 😭 I have nobody but myself to blame because I’ve met so many girls my age at work, school, etc who I hit it off with and just never knew how to pursue talking to them outside of that environment because I’m nervous. My boyfriend spends nearly all of his free time with me but even though it’s unhealthy I find myself getting sad every time he does spend time with people (like he’s doing at this exact moment lol) because I’m so jealous he has a group of friends that he’s known since childhood. 

I’ve been diagnosed with social anxiety but I’ve always felt like there was something else deeper wrong with me because every time I try to talk to people I don’t know very well it feels like a performance almost. I constantly overthink every interaction and I’m so scared of getting rejected like I have in the past. It feels like I can’t let go and be my real self around strangers which sucks because I actually really like the person I am when I’m not bound by anxiety 😭 and other people have expressed that I’m interesting and fun to be around so I don’t know why I have so much trouble believing it. It feels like I can’t be myself around people unless I get really drunk first which sucks 

Has anyone ever managed to successfully break out of their shell in their 20s or is it too late for me 

Social anxiety is lowkey ruining my life