Am I worthless for being a virgin?

I'm a 30 year old pre everything trans woman. In the trans community, there are a lot of jokes about sex. Typically that when two trans people meet, they end up in bed. Being a 30 year old vigrin in modern society is bad enough, but add that I'm trans and it just makes everything feel so much worse. I remember half my high school having sex before senior year. Every college I went to had people enjoying it. And now I talk to other trans people and they bring it up, start talking about body counts. And I feel so fucking worthless.

And I'm not a virgin from lack of trying or religious reasons. I'm very kinky! I'm a puppy girl and have a lot of other kinks I'll not mention here. But now I'm so nervous I'll finally get with someone and I'll fuck it up and they'll leave. Idk I just...feel so worthless