i’m never considered.

idk, it’s just making me mad.

i’m a senior in college. I have a few good friends, quality over quantity as they say. but even then…

never invited to things. never asked if i wanna go do something together. when i ask to do things, i’m constantly rejected. i’m ignored. nobody ever initiates conversation with me, no matter what i try.

i’m autistic. i’m weird and annoying. these are all things i’m willing to accept. but it’s really fucking shitty that there isn’t a single fucking person on this planet that’s even willing to *pretend* to like me. i’ve worked pretty damn hard to improve my social skills. it’s a slow battle. but i can’t change the fact i’m the weird girl and come off as blunt or odd sometimes, no matter what strategy i try to use.

god, it just makes me realize how hollow most people are. i always try to include everyone whenever my classmates and i are chatting. i always invite my friends to do things together. i always talk to people i think need a friend.

when the fuck is it my turn? am i really that selfish? i don’t know.