I’m a Yazidi and I genuinely want to understand your faith

Hello everyone. I'm a 22-year-old Yazidi from Europe, and I'm posting because I genuinely want to understand Christianity better, not to criticize it, but because I'm confused and I've hit a wall every time I try to talk about this.

First, some context, most people don't know much about Yazidism, but unlike Christianity and Islam, you're basically born into it and it’s impossible for an outsider to convert. Also It's monotheistic, we believe in one God, and it's just... what you are and what the old scholars and People teach you. Around the age of 16, though, I started questioning everything about belief and religion and I'm still doing that now.

Here's the thing, I actually love my religion and I'm grateful I was born into it, because to this day I have yet to find a single mistake and evilness in it. It’s simply you, the nature, your good will and actions and the love that you give. But there's always been this void I couldn't explain. Part of it is that we don't have a holy book like the Bible or the Quran. Those texts fascinate me, I've read through both multiple times and I have huge respect for them. But that's also where my confusion starts.

When I study Christianity specifically, I keep coming back to something that bugs me, it feels like the text has been rewritten and adjusted over time to fit whoever held power. And I know that might sound harsh, but I genuinely don't mean it disrespectfully. What I struggle with most is that Christianity seems to have drifted pretty far from what Jesus actually taught. Instead, it feels like that the man named Paul shaped the religion way more than Jesus did. Like, Paul is almost the real foundation, you know?

Every time I've tried to bring this up in conversation, people either shut it down or avoid it. So I'm asking here because I actually want answers.

For those of you who are Christian.

Why do you accept Christianity?

What research did you do before converting (if you converted)?

And honestly, is there anyone here who has studied multiple religions without judgment?

I feel like that's rare, and I'd like to know what that journey looked like.

I'm not trying to argue or prove anyone wrong.

I just want to understand.

Thank you:)