At My Breaking Point... Feeling Lost and Alone

At my genuine breaking point.. I just feel lost and alone. I just don’t see the point anymore in anything. Everything I do starts out positive, but it always ends shit.

I keep trying, and it feels like no matter what, something bad happens all the time. I look around and see people my age... careers, kids, holidays like they’re actually living, and I have nothing!!

I try soooo hard, but it’s like I never get anything back. And the worst part is, I know people who have done awful things and they’re the ones who are doing great. I know people who rob, who deal, who lie, and somehow they’re better off than me? I try to work as hard and always legit as I can, but for what? Absolutely nothing.

What is the actual point of it all when I get nothing in return? i don't get to enjoy life. I just live to survive another day really...

The government just keeps screwing me every chance they get. When I was unemployed, I couldn’t get a penny from the government, so I had to borrow and borrow, and still, nothing. Meanwhile, there are people who never work at all and they’re still better off. I just don’t get how life works anymore. I don’t understand anything.

I keep asking myself if it’s even worth it, if everyone would just be better off without me, without all these problems I bring on people.

I also know something’s wrong with my health; I can feel it. I went to the doctor, and I’m just waiting for the results, but I know something isn’t right with my body. I feel like I’m just waiting for bad news, and I keep asking, what is the point?