Venting

I am so distraught.. my bunny is extremely distructive and i cant believe how stressfull and chaotic my life has become just because of a bunny.. i really dont think this is for me after all and i feel absolutely horrible. At the same time i cant stand the thought of giving her away, cause atleast i know she is safe and happy here. I just want to warn anyone thinking of getting a bunny, to remember they are destructive by nature, and if you cant afford a couple 100 dollars extra a month on unpredicted damage control, or own your own apartment/house, then just dont get one. Dogs are easier. No actually. The amount of times at night i woke up in a panic because i hear a new type of sound, thinking is she gonna put us out of a home this time? Or has she hurt herself, Is insane. Its horrible. Everytime i hear a sound i stop breathing and run over. Yesterday i woke up to knocking on the door and the police calling my phone. I got up and saw my entire kitchen flooded. The short amount of time i let her free roam supervised the day before, after carefully barricading the washing machine, was all it took. Water had been leaking through to the apt below. I have no idea how much this will cost me. I struggle to afford food because the recession in my country is so bad. I didnt predict the recession when i got my bunny and i also didnt know how financially free you should be before getting one. And i guess bunnies are very different. The ones i grew up with could chew the occasional cable sure, but they werent set out for absolute destruction every waking second. I cannot afford new clothes, and she has ruined many. I dont leave clothes on the floor, but i was changing, took her 2 seconds. She seems possessed. She doesnt like being touched but when she gets a «gnawing fit» i could literally pick her up and try to pull her off it physically and she doesnt react to me, she is absolutely rabid. She is only 4 months, i want to get her fixed so bad hoping it gets a little bit better, but it costs 4-500 dollars in my country, yes i knew this when getting her, but again, i didnt predict the hardcore recession.. i feel like im at my breaking point. None of my previous buns were anywhere near this insane. Is this normal?.. ive cable proofed and barricaded everything but she somehow always finds a way