it’s all zooming by, there’s no point if everyone’s gonna die

this morning at around 3:30, one of my aunts passed away, and i didnt feel surprised, i felt emotionless, tired of it but it was like there’s no pain in reacting anymore. so i just accepted it. everyone’s gonna die, everyone in my family has issues and it all happens to ruin me more than anyone out of everyone. i dont wanna live if everyone wants me dead.