Stuck in a dilemma , what to do ? ( Read body )

so , there are days when I am like missing human interaction like going out with friends , talking to others or having someone who care about me while i am mostly like fk it I don't need nobody else , I am better alone .

but still , when I see people of my same age hang out have fun , post insta stories, I feel empty like fomo . that's why I haven't activated my insta in 5 years .

before anyone of you says that hang out with your friends or talk with them . well I can't , all of my school mates are repulsive piece of shits .

haven't been out of house for fun in 3 years .