He talked about my vagina in an argument I am now heartbroken and insecure (35F) (36M)how do I become strong enough to leave?

We’ve been together for 2 years. He said he didn’t mean it he was just mad…Me and my boyfriend were arguing and he said my pu\*\*y is trash and that I have an ugly pu\*\*y. He said he didn’t mean it and that he’s obviously sexually attracted to me. The I see his search history is fat p\*\*sy, pretty pu\*\*y, stuff like that and none of the pictures look anything like mine. I’ve always been insecure about mine and now I don’t even want him to look at me. I guess I’m just wondering could he really be attracted to me, and say those things to me. I feel like he has to look at pretty vaginas to want to sleep with me. How do I move past this? Every argument gets worse and he says more painful things that you can not come back from.