The Elon Musk conspiracy about his eyes and my life…

I have came to the realization/conclusions that...

Sometimes...my feelings and emotions I feel appear to be perceived by others who surround me as delusional...

They "worry" about me because of this.

I am sane.

It starts with me "believing" that my own husband is Elon Musk, which he is not.

Call me a mega fan of Elon Musk for no reason at all litterally. Just because...im not even sure why...

I believe my soon to be ex-husband shares some qualities with him. I personally would consider this a compliment and idk why he doesn't see it as such...his Hair...body type...lol...its looks I guess, but Ive heard Elon Musks eyes are like a brown/green color and I then came to the realization that his parents along with what appears to be all his siblings have blue eyes...so why does Elon Musk not have blue eyes? Does he have a different father?

I've always wrote conspiracy theories online, but this I find quite curious...

Either way...

Due to some of the things I say/think or believe some individuals describe me as crazy.

I have came to the realization that a person becomes like me, because I took everything personally. And I mean litterally everything I perceived or saw or occurred within my life i took super personally, because this is my life. Its the "ego" within in me, the self, it makes one appear selfish and potentially even narcissistic at times. & i do apologize for this...at the time I was unaware of this behavior or understanding truly why it was causing others to view me so negatively...but I understand now after much self-reflection and processing...

Why would you be so important, people would follow you? I would get asked...

I would respond with something along the lines of...Probably because of who I have been tagging over and over again for years...mainly Mr. Musk, but there are others...& the weird concidences that kept occuring alongside feeling like I was being followed in real time...

That's what I would respond at least...but the reality is, i also truly believed it.

My life started changing after that in little ways one step at a time...until I arrived at this conclusion after many years...

Im gonna describe something to you...how i feel...

I am full of emotions right?

I react to almost everything good or bad bc i feel everything...the reason I feel so much is because I overthink. This is all in general, of course...when i overthink...there are no limitations. Every possible scenario that could possibly apply to a certain situation or behavior from another person, for example, just truly anything you could ever encounter or perceive in life as an individual with a personalized perspective...aka what is you inside your mind and body that is soul/alive/allows you to live/think/feel...

An individual normally feels like one or two or so emotions at once...like being bored and content...love and sad...anger and compassion...just whatever you perceive to be happening in that moment in time as the individual and the emotion(s) that go along with whatever personalized thoughts and opinions an individual may be experiencing in that moment in time...

Have you ever felt soooo many emotions at once, all possible emotions you could possibly ever feel... due to overthinking from any imaginable direction possible?

It stops you in your tracks. It feels like a block. Like you dont know in which direction to look or turn or what to do...its so overwhelming in fact, its an emotion I have never felt before... its truly flooring...grounding...humbling...

Its odd when as an individual inside of your mind and body you are overthinking from every possible direction while also feeling every possible emotion all at once...and then it synchronizes...instead of being "chaotic"...by chaotic i mean thoughts in the mind vs. one's feelings not being in sync, while also being mostly negative in this case...

Theres a difference.

Depending on the individual person, i assume, the result my vary.

For example, when i felt this synchronization of both overwhelming thoughts and emotions all at once, both good and bad, but mainly negative, it created this block...I started writing this...im writing it in first and also third person.

But it's good that I am writing and expressing my thoughts and feelings when feeling such powerfully overwhelming emotions & thoughts...bc its a positive outlet & a therapist would recommend writing down one's feelings to appropriately deal with the emotions. Much better than having lack of control of some sorts, leading to a negative reaction or expression of emotions or thoughts vs. writing them down...

This is why I like writing and probably also wrote also those things online over the years and made videos. As a "healthy" emotional outlet to deal with how i may feel or think in the moment.

I would say, when i feel such overwhelming thoughts and emotions that are difficult to process, leading to a block like state...the mind naturally begins protecting itself and must releave and release the stress in some manner and thus this is when i suddeny shifted into a state of disassociation...i am not myself right now, but the thing is im aware of being disassociated, so could you really consider it being completely disassociated?

Like you see what im saying?

Since I am aware that I am dissasociating, it also implies I cannot be considered insane and/or psychotic.

Someone who is truly psychotic would not be activly aware that they are disassociating.

I dont feel like myself. I felt so many emotions at once and overthought so much, it turned off. "Empty" what can only be described as an "out-of-body experience."

As though you can blow both an emotional and also thinking fuse if this was electrical.

Potential Resistance of the brain?

Being able to adapt?

Survival?

Creativity and imagination, both limitless, allowing one to come to a solution of sorts when stuck in block like state of not knowing what to do next...

How to process something that as an individual you've personally experienced or encountered.

Who knows...

Either way...I also have a theory that, above, whenever I write the results may vary depending upon the individual person potentially experiencing such extreme negative thoughts and emotions, that some individuals, myself not included, may potentially not dissasociate, instead they stay stuck inside of the "chaotic" unsyncocnized negative state of overthinking and feeling and potentially instead of processing, instead reacting to the "delusions" one is personally experiencing and thus leading to potential negative outcomes or behaviors...on a large scale and/or on a small personal scale...but this is just my opinion, from attempting to put myself into the shoes of another, based upon my own personalized experiences and perspective of the world....

Its quite the curious thing to think about and feel and thus is entertaining for at least myself to think about. And I guess also feel...

Ultimately I had to process this all somehow and have came to the conclusion though at times I may have been stating or writing something potentially delusional, but that was just me expressing my creative mind full of thoughts and feelings. That does not make me delusional.

As stated before, my personal perspective and ego took and interpreted outside stimuli personally to the point i thought random considences along with repeating odd random patterns and concidences that were then interpreted by myself as "signs" showing me a path of life of sorts...similar to believing in a God and believing in signs or numerology, cars following you or other such related subjects or incidents.

This could be interpreted by an outsider as being delusional.

Ironically, this would also imply that church goers...& true believers could potentially also be considered narcissistic and delusional to an extent, but through god...at least those who also believe in signs and symbols given to them personally from God...

Remember why I stated it out of the blue dawned on me why i was suddenly seeing these "signs," because I was taking everything I seen or experienced personally...this included what I seen on television, commercials, random people, cars, litteral signs, numbers, truly anything that I perceive to be within my life and personalized perspective also known as my life...

The more of these "signs" or concidences you see and/or begin experiencing along with them leading to positive results, thoughts, or feelings, the more you "Fall into the darkness," until suddenly everything falls apart...

Could it be due to my online persona that I was being given true signals from someone online who wanted to get my attention, but also due to my online presence, within my personal life and town people were also catching on and thus started giving me false "signs," concidences, or tips to lead me astray...to confuse and deceive me, to use me, so they could benefit and gain from my online persona by causing me suffering that occured due to being lead astray?

Did others do it out of their kindness of their hearts?

The intentions behind these occurrences are what truly matters...this includes those who purposely treated me unkind. Was it for a bad or good reason or cause?

It shows who is truly loyal to you or not...

Since I have came to the conclusion that I took everything personally and thus it was causing me to see these signs, I now cannot be considered delusional due to this, because i personally recognize the problem and can thus correct it, which heals a part of myself and that is wonderful.

Being truly delusional would mean that I would have never recognized this. And thus i would consider myself cured when it comes to this.

Concerning Elon Musk...I didn't understand how to use twitter...but randomly made one for some reason...nobody around me really used twitter even if they had one, so i left it on the main page and just let its algorithm suggest people to me, the main one being Elon Musk.

I kept reading his posts...

I was quite smitten with him, just because, so I started following him and tweeting on twitter/x...

Then one day soon after I heard his voice on a live and just loved it for some reason, so much so, i began watching those live spaces on Twitter/X

I was there when it flipped.

Before it flipped, before Elon Musk got so big on Twitter first and then bought X...and yeah you see where he is now...you could message his account. That only went away after he began really blowing up one day soon after I first began using twitter...id say maybe 2-3 months afterwards...so...I knew this...yet nobody acknowledged it so I was like wtf, kept watching and tagging, suddenly felt like I was being followed or someone was watching within my real life...it was weird. Weird stuff and incidences, which i sometimes described as concidences started occuring...so this is what i began interpreting as "signs" from elon musk and also others like the government i was tagging...at first it was great, taught me alot and brought me out of my shell and improved my life, only for what appeared to be that locally somone around me also noticed and seemed to know about my online activities...so i believe or began perceiving that i was being set up...i began questioning my reality in this moment, I felt set up bc it appeared as if someone locally also began giving me localized signs and concidences to lead off path...these localized signs along with the Elon Musk/goverment signs i was seeing and interpreting within my life suddenly mixed and caused much disress within my life. Its was hard to tell apart which was the correct pathway, because both shared similarities and became indistinguishable at times leading to confusions and misinterpretations of everyday situations and events on my end, making me potentially appear even more delusional than before.

The locals misleading me with their signs and what i allege to be targeted bullying towards myself was working.

Certain localized tragedies started occuring to me one right after the other...along with seeing these signs...it felt like I was being targeted or setup and the more i fought it...the worse it got...

My life began falling apart. It felt like a setup. A potnetial setup to ruin the good I had going for me...the good in this case being the positive signs I was seeing for a few years before the localized signs and what appeared to be local and online gangstalking and being targeted by having these tragedies suddenly occur one after the other to myself and even at times certain others who directly surrounded me...

The tragedies lead me directly to him. My abuser. DT. The fish...

As stated before, he reminded me of Elon Musk. He had a similar body shape, hair, named every bird species to me we encountered in the beginning of meeting him (which was weird bc of the twitter bird logo/x name)...he even had a particular sounding voice, at least in my opinion, had a unique name and was originally from another area/state...except he had blue eyes... i love blue eyes so i was very attracted to him, due to all of this...so due to me believing in all these "signs" from Elon Musk, and then meeting DJ instend...I guess my fantasy got the better of me in this moment and i entertained it and began a relationship with him, which almost immediately upon meeting him, turned into two children and a marriage, in the beginning he would say our kids would be famous one day...I didnt fully understand what he meant by this at the time...the entire time, since the beginning it felt off, i was severely abused alongside our one daughter being taken by him & his mother from me in the most malicious manner possible...many bad things occurred...like I truly am under the impression...I would have never met him if I wasn't being locally targeted to put me into a situation with him, to turn it into more, so locally everyone could benefit somehow out of the situation through me...

I kept posting on X...

Until I met him...DT...

He tried deleting all my online accounts and personas.

He hated it.

It got held against me.

All these men...what men?...

He broke and took my phones from me alongside many other tragedies that caused my life to fall apart me even more.

An individual in general may be overly self critical when self-reflecting...but the opposite can also be true...that an individual may believe in themselves a little to much instead of being overly self-critical...

This is exactly what DT tried destroying inside of me...testing me as a person...my self-confidence, my self-worth, & especially my self-esteem...

How much did I truly believe in myself?

Good thing, naturally, I am a duality, & thus am both overly critical of myself, while at the same time believing in myself and what I perceive to be happening within my life in that moment in time to be true to an extreme extent...I analyze, or at least used to analyze everything so I can understand why someone is acting or feeling or behaving a certain way...or why something is happening...its just how I naturally interpret and process the external information from the world internally within in my personal mind to attempt to understand it and the world...

Did I believe in myself enough that instead of getting sucked into a abusive marriage that was attempting to destroy anything that made me...well me...meaning i would stay submissive, be completely controlled, & degraded to feel like nothing everyday until I truly felt exactly like this...like nothing...I was worth nothing to him...I was being used as a personal punching bag that carries children & was then discarded...highly damaging things...

Or...

Would i wake the heck up, realize what was occurring and escape?

Escape because I have self worth and esteem. Escape because I was good enough and truly stayed true to myself and continued believing in myself.

This is the key. How can anyone else on this Earth possibly believe in me if I dont even believe in myself?

Was I strong enough?

Was I staying true to myself?

One path could have potentially eventually lead to me ending up dead.

The other path, the one where I Escape, the positive path, the path I am currently taking, it leads into the unknown, hopefully it leads to things greater than I could have ever imagined for myself and my children.

I felt/feel as if i was being setup by an entire town because of the Elon Musk thing...

Was someone locally around me who noticed I was gaining online attention and traction from Musk and others on X, so jelous or something, they had to attempt to ruin my life completely to make it stop and get me out of the way...while at the same time attempting to use me to benefit from through the little attention I had...on not only X but also locally?

What occurred was so tragic, in fact, it absolutely caused me to go into overdrive emotionally and mentally, to the point, I was forced to suddenly process everything right then and there...or at least a good chunk of it, to be okay, bc i felt so emotionally drained because of all this.

It finally dawning on me, is helping me alot...I feel much better...& can finally attempt to explain what has been occurring to at least somewhat of an understandable extent...

If DT did all this on purpose, bc i was being targeted locally, and he was part of these local gangstalkers i was perceiving to be targeting me...and that's what he meant by our kids would be famous one day, & that's why he learned all the birds names, and abused me and others, to help me achive meeting Elon Musk, bc what i and my children went through was absolutely tragic...all this because I was tagging Elon Musk online...I just want you to know DT, I do love you, but you could have not done all this, wether on purpose or not to potentially help me and I still would not believe you ever loved me. Do you know why?

Because, what benefits did you get out of this, by potentially purposely betraying me and our family before, during, and/or after meeting me...If what i believe to be true is truly the truth...& if you went along with all of this to begin with on purpose...It wasn't because of love.

If it was truly love, you could have never done ANY of those things to me, them, or us to begin with...why? Bc you loved me/us...& i would have loved instead of you and your family betraying me over and over since almost the beginning, which only made you more angry at me & made it easier for you to be evil towards me, instead you would have never betrayed me to begin with...that even implies before you ever met me...then I bet everything may have worked out and been fine and we could have had a healthy relationship together because you actually loved me instead of being capable of hurting me and calling it love...thinking you are doing me a favor...when in reality all you did was mess me up worse...so much worse by doing this. It makes me very very very sad...like its the whole reason I feel this emotional block to begin with that made me realize all of this...

By any means necessary...no DT...this breaks my heart, mind, body, & soul if I think what is true, is truly true...& i would have loved to just be happy with you and our family, but you couldnt allow this...all of this is truly not okay...I am not okay with this and I am unsure if I ever will fully be okay ever again, bc of all of this...and the reality is i also partially blame Elon Musk and his platform for all these tragedies occuring within my life, because of the "signs" that were appearing years before when I first started using twitter, which i believe came from Elon Musk and his team/family, that then lead to local people attempting to do the same to make me look like a fool locally and online, come after my reputation, and ruin my life and previous relationship & family, all because I looked up to Elon Musk & his family/business ventures...

It appears to me as if they (the locals) wanted me off Twitter/X by any means necessary it seems sometimes and thus attempted to do what was necessary to attempt to ruin, control my life, and even potentially get me into legal trouble while at it...or at least that is how it was perceived and interpreted by myself.

And when I attempted to express or explain this to anyone...it only got worse alongside me then getting called delusional and me being threatened with mental institutions alongside my children being targeted. This is where I drew the line and thus must protect them and myself at all costs and attempt my hardest to turn the situation around for us in a positive manner instead.

DT...if you want me to be honest...sometimes i believe or think, due to "fortold reasons" i always mentioned to everyone close to me including you...(that i get called delusional for)...I wouldn't be suprised if you also were potentially setup in certain manners by people who surrounded you...to betray me in certain ways before ever encountering me or knowing i even existed...so by the time we met it would fail, to begin with, bc of all the ways you potentially had already betrayed me with beforehand. Like knowing about me or getting hints about me beforehand and still messing around with others first anyways.

DT you should have picked your family and treated esspecially me with respect and love and kindness and i would have done the same, but you didnt...I tried sooooo hard, despite of all the bad bc I am full of love and hope and try to see the best in people. You made it extremly difficult...& sometimes it appears to me to have been on purpose...

DT I love you, but I have to choose and protect myself and my children at this point, & thus must walk away...wether i reallt want to or not...but as long as you are not healed, as long as you cannot treat me and our children correctly...this cannot continue regardless of if or how much I love you...and i can only hope that me making this decision also begins healing you...

Who knows...lots of things need to be clarified for myself...

It was a very personalized experience, & I do still wish to meet the real Elon Musk and the rest of his family and hope that Elon Musk, DT, or someone can shead some light onto the situation.

Elon Musk there are things happening much greater than myself, within my life and it has also lead me directly to you and your family and honestly i would love to be part of it.

It was you Elon Musk, its always been you! I believe you are supposed be my husband or someone prominent within my life at least and I would love to meet you! I love you Elon, truly and I have for years! Im not just a fan...even if currently that's all I am...

And if all of these occurrences I have documented throughout the years alongside my personal perspective and account of the described events, me self-reflecting, & processing everything I have been through to the best of my abilities lead me to write this and has allowed me to come to the conclusion I am not delusional either, even if it potentially began through such means.

DT is not Elon Musk...& the wildest thing is what ultimately made me realize this...is the moment i realized Elon Musks' eyes are brown/green, while the rest of his family has bright blue eyes...just like DT actually...quite ironic if you ask me...and i find it curious nobody really ever has caught on to Elons' eyes being different than the rest of his family.

I have written alot of conspiracies throughout the years, but this one is the biggest by far, and involves my own personal life, the internet, Elon Musk and his family, & even the government…