One of my brackets keeps breaking off no matter what

I genuinely feel like ripping out the entire bottom wire at this fucking point. My left lower canine is too high to continue to another wire so I’m stuck wearing the same fucking wire. Now, while abroad all the way until the 26th, i broke that same bracket while eating soft bread. I’m genuinely done with braces. I want these off. These things are killing me and i feel like I’m going insane for this. I want this to be over. I’m tired of this. I’m tired of my orthodontists’ passive aggressive remarks telling me I’m on the same wire - I know. What the hell am I supposed to do at this point it keeps breaking no matter what. I’m genuinely considering just starving myself. I’m tired of this and I don’t deserve to eat clearly since I can’t even eat like a normal fucking person without breaking this bracket. If I can’t fall asleep I might rip out my bottom wire because I’m done. I’m so done and this happened at night so now I’m just helpless. I can’t get an orthodontist and I’m stuck being frustrated and pissed off at this ONE bracket. I don’t want to pay to get it fixed abroad. I shouldn’t fucking have to it was soft bread and somehow my spasticated self can’t handle not breaking my fucking braces.