May be narc but not sure.

Hi.

So, for a start i got all the "usual" stuff. Hollownes, your whole life being an act, no sense of self, no pleasure from or desire for social interactions, hiding behind delusions of grandeur, ect.

but what makes me doubt is that a "proper" narcissist is supposed to be unempathetic, or a t least opposed or unfamiliar with empathy in some way.

but that's just not true for me at all. I feel empathy in great amounts, even for people that disagree with me or whom i hate. not as an immediate reaction, the immediate emotional (luckily masked over) reaction is anger.

but at some point i think about why they make their claim and how it may be just as hard for them as it is for me to face a dissident voice.

i even play devils advocate for people i despise even if it makes me unpopular (pretty much the only thing I'll do that would knowingly make me unpopular)

and i feel like i do it out of a sense of empathy for the people i defend.

is empathy something else entirely? give me some advice please.