**Content warning for themes of captivity and general non-consensual activities.**

Hi everyone! Recently I've been itching to play this neat little RPG called [there is no self, there is only you](https://geostatonary.itch.io/tintoy), or TINTOY for short. Feel free to check out the itch.io page for more details on how it's played, but I'll explain it briefly here as well.

Essentially, the way it works is there are two players, a Captor (you!) and a Subject (me!). What's neat about TINTOY is that neither player is a GM, so there's more of a focus on the way our characters bounce off each other and how we each affect the course of the overall story. The Subject writes down three memories that are foundational to who they are in some way and shares them with the Captor. Over the course of play, the Captor can edit the Subject's memories and by doing so alter their identity. The Subject has to confront the Captor's attempts to change them, and indeed they can resist the changes and even reject some of them, but they are never able to completely negate them. No matter how defensively the Subject plays, they always end up losing a part of themselves.

That's what's really hot about this game to me! I love the feeling of slowly losing my hold on my own identity and having to decide what part of myself I'm okay with giving up. In the past I've sometimes felt bogged down by this kind of slow burn roleplay scenario, but I think gamifying it like this does a lot to help keep things moving at a brisk pace while still feeling the full impact of the Captor's changes. You basically alternate between scenes of daily life between the two characters and more fast-moving scenes taking place inside the Subject's mind as they struggle against what the Captor has planned for their future.

I have some general ideas for what our characters' backstories could be. Maybe you're a psychologist trying to convince me that my entire life as I know it is just a delusion, and in reality I'm just a stupid pet boy who likes to pretend to be an intelligent independent person? Or I could be the heir of a noble house who gets himself captured by space pirate rebels and turned into their leader's obedient concubine. I could also just be some random boy that you decide to kidnap off the street! But I tend to find it hotter when we have some kind of narrative opposition beyond me wanting to escape and you wanting to imprison me. Higher stakes just make losing that much more fun! Anyway, there are lots of possibilities, and I'm pretty flexible, so I'd love to brainstorm with you.

I'll finish up with a list of my kinks, but these aren't mandatory by any means (though I've bolded my favorites), it's more like a menu at a buffet. If you like everything, awesome! If you like some things but not others, awesome! Send me a chat and introduce yourself. I look forward to hearing from you \^\^

Some relevant kinks:

Transformation (mostly kemonomimi & dolls), **petplay**, **hurt / comfort**, reality warping, hypnosis, **intoxication**, **condescension**, **gaslighting**, dystopian matriarchal settings, older partners, outfit control, **kidnapping**, captivity, torture, nulloplasty, various permanent mutilations, fear and mental anguish in general, and more!

My limits:

1. Explicit sex — obviously I have very particular sexual tastes. Generally those tastes do not include anything like "stimulating my genitals until reaching orgasm." *May* be an option if we think of a fun way to make it really fucked up, but don't expect it.
2. Gender transformation — I am a boy and I love being a boy. It is the hottest thing in the world to me and I don't get anything out of being turned into a girl. Dress me up in cute girly outfits and do my hair and call me a princess, sure, but don't try to change my gender identity.

(Also, the lovely art in this post is from the artist [@chan03180](https://x.com/chan03180) on Twitter!)

[m4F] [LFG] [TINTOY] [PbP] Let's play a fucked up hypno-horny RPG about memory alteration and identity death!