I can’t tell if i’m just overthinking or not

Up until around mid last year, I struggled with finding ways to deal with anger. Probably because I grew up with an emotionally abusive father and I viewed anger as a bad thing so I just internalised it my whole life. So i’d often swear in my head when i was angry at someone (i’d never say anything mean to anyone) even when they didn’t deserve it, because even really small things would make me angry/i was often angry for no reason at all.

I’m worried that no one else really does this and i’m just a bad person. These weren’t intrusive thoughts because they didn’t just pop into my head and i know i didn’t actually mean them but still. I don’t do this anymore since i’ve gotten much better at dealing with anger, and I barely feel angry much at all anymore (except I do towards my father). Because of my ocd I can’t tell if i’m overthinking, so i’d be very grateful if someone could tell me if they think I am or not.