Went through prescription and about to use meth

I was prescribed generic Concerta and after only three days its almost out. I don't even know how much I used in the moment I just kept eating them. I crushed them in my mouth so it would hit harder but I still wanted more.

Now I am about to go smoke meth with a guy I met off Grindr and I am not even very into guys I just want to smoke meth. I live in a sober living and last week got away with using some in the bathroom for a like three days.

I feel like I am spiraling. I am scared and just feel I need stimulants. I use energy drinks and high dose nicotine too. Last week I was on a research chemical called cyclazodone and energy drinks and thought I was going to stroke out at work. What to do? I don't know what to do anymore. I feel it can't function without them. I have bad ADHD and my job is dependent on me being on my A game.