Need help with guidance

Hey so I’m a 24(m) that lives in America. I’ve struggled with religion over the years on belief and believing a “god” I grew up catholic and those beliefs never really sat with me well I never really felt connected. I’ve recently in the past year or two have been learning a lot about trusting the universe and Taoism. I’ve listened to a ton of Alan watts who happens to be one of my favorite speakers. Lately I’ve been in a bad spot mentally with life in general and have found it hard to get back on track with a good mindset. I feel like I lack guidance and the whole trusting the universe thing I believe in and want to be more connected with, which I once was but lately it’s been hard. I’m not sure how else to explain but the whole trusting the process is getting a little tough and I want to be more connected with that belief but I need more guidance on how. Do you guys recommend any form of better guidance on what it means to be good or evil, the things I should strive for, clarity and being comfortable spiritually etc. thank you