Counting days vs. not counting days

Stick with me on this one. I’ve always counted days. In my AA past it was one of the main focus areas. Sometimes I feel that counting days put extra pressure on me. When I reset the counter (history of relapse) I feel this additional strain.

Maybe it’s just me and my addiction brain trying to weasel its way out of consistency and accountability. Anyone else feel this pressure?

Anyway….. day 2