Seeking perspective: christian ex broke up with me because “being gay is a sin”

I’m currently processing a situation that wrecked my world. See below, and please be sensitive if you choose to engage.

I was in a loving relationship with a man who, one day, turned to me and said he could not continue to live in sin. He broke up with me, sharing that although he understood the implications of his decision (he’s going to suppress his feelings and sexual desires), this repentance was the way to God.

This was one of the most painful things to be on the receiving end of, and I do not wish it on anyone. I was raised Christian and wasn’t at all trying to get him to reverse his decision for my own benefit. Instead, I felt terribly bad that the man I loved was going to be miserable, in his own words, the rest of his life.

God as I know Him made me this way. Gay individuals know that they did not “choose” to be gay, which means that this is an intrinsic trait of that person. This is beautifully illustrated in the movie Conclave, which I will not spoil and will instead ask you to watch it if you can spare the time. God made me to His image, He made me this way, and he made no mistake for He is perfect in his doing.

He would not make me with an inherent trait that would predispose me to go to hell.

I struggle with perspectives in conversations like these because they are incredibly socially constructed. God inspired His word to us for us to interpret, and we see individuals who think they have the understanding of God’s word to cast judgment upon others. I fail to grasp that God would want it this way, and He knows my heart and knows I harm no one by choosing to love a man and respect him in the same way a man who loves a woman should respect her.

I continue to eat from the bread and drink from the cup, I pray and give thanks several times a day, I praise my parents, and have so much love to give with a heart that has no room for hate. I choose this because my relationship with God is between him and I, not between man and how he feels I should live my life.

Let me know your thoughts below and help me process. I’m building the courage to talk to my pastor about it.

P.S.: I spoke with my youth pastor and he told me that he didn’t have the information to tell me whether being gay is a sin or not. He shared that God has a law, which is to procreate. Two gay people can’t biologically do this (we talked about IVF but agreed that the biology still requires an egg and a sperm). He then shared that God did not talk about love until the end of Genesis, making the point that there are some things in The Bible that precede love, and that he did not know why God made it this way.

From there, we talked about verses in The Bible where homosexuality is condemned (in f this is important for your response below, I can happily provide them), where God allowed David to have multiple wives, and where women are prohibited from exerting dominance over men. We talked about this to compare and contrast these contentious topics within The Bible. We ended agreeing that the best way to know is to pray God for guidance and answers.