i’m having troubles trying to figure out if this was rape or if i’m just confused

A few weeks ago, I started talking to a guy I had known online. We hadn’t met before because of distance, but after my dad moved to his area, I began visiting more and made friends there. One of my friends is his cousin, which is how we ended up hanging out.

The first time we were together in a group, he was holding my hand, hugging me, and being physically close with me, but it didn’t feel sexual at the time.

A couple of days later, I found out he had slept with someone else at a party. When I saw him again after that, his behavior toward me felt different—more aggressive and less respectful.

That night, I had snuck out and ended up hiding in a closet because my dad was looking for me. He was already in the closet and seemed upset. We were both very close together in a small space, and I was also very intoxicated.

While we were in the closet, he suddenly grabbed me and started kissing me without asking. I didn’t know how to respond, and because I was drunk and overwhelmed, I didn’t stop him. He then started touching me in a sexual way. He asked if I wanted to go to the bathroom, and I said “okay,” but I wasn’t thinking clearly or making a fully conscious decision.

In the bathroom, he continued kissing and touching me, and he removed my clothing. I didn’t say no, but I also didn’t say yes or feel like I had control over what was happening. I mostly froze and went along with it. He then had sex with me.

Afterward, I felt confused and unsure about what happened. I don’t feel like I was in a state where I could properly consent because I was intoxicated and overwhelmed. I didn’t actively choose what happened, and I’ve been struggling to understand and process it since.

I’m also a minor and he’s a year younger than me so idk how to proceed with this situation