I miss when I felt wanted

I hate that I don't want to leave, because I want to feel wanted again, without having to fight for it. I love him immensely but he just consistently shows that he's just coasting, not really in it the way I still am, the way I'm still trying to be. The way he used to be. But I'm starting to believe that I will never get that from him again. I think that he cares for me and I think that he's comfortable. But i want to feel wanted, desired, and adored naturally. I want to make my partner feel the same. And i really just think it's not going to happen again here. I haven't worn my engagement ring in days. It doesn't feel right to. I really just don't think I'm in this anymore. I want to be, I want him to really show that he wants me to be. But he cant or wont, so I can't. Not now, maybe never again. And that sucks. Sometimes, I wish i never confronted him about the porn and the fantasizing about others. I wish i continued to live in this comfortable imagination. I could pretend that his sexual needs towards me weren't influenced by how recently he watched porn or edged or something, but by a genuine desire for me. I could pretend that I was the only person on his mind and in his eyes. But I can't pretend, I can't go back. And I'm tired.