Today

it began last night actually, but today, I've decided to take a stand. I've battled and wondered why. gone back and forth. played the what ifs. written songs. journaled. drowned. but today, I take my stand. not in begging, not in poverty. but faith.

I've prayed and asked. if there's a chance, that God would begin opening the right doors. if there's not, to shut them. not asking for big signs and wonders. but that the fleece is wet, the fleece is dry.

I still pray that He puts me on your mind, that you'll think of me and drop that message. but at the end of the day, I can't let this hurt continue to hold me down. it doesn't mean I don't love you, that I don't forgive you. because with all my heart, I do. but I've been chained to this hurt for far too long.

I do believe in us. I do believe love waits where it begins. but I can't do that alone.

I hope you had an amazing Easter Sunday with your family. I hope I'll talk to you later. bye