Hope you do too!

I started doing what scared me 2 years ago. And now, I'm thriving – small but fulfilling, kinda hard but I'm enjoying it. Ito pala yung take the risk sometimes 😊. Naalala ko lang when I tried to open my heart to one guy, and I know he lied and sometimes drained me emotionally, so I stepped back and just kept the friendship. But the thing is, he did something out of line by reading my private messages and misunderstood without asking me directly how I felt that time. Blocked. Never looking back anymore.

Then there was this one guy whom I tried to just enjoy the game with, but when I silently focused on real life, he was offended because hindi na ako namansin (madaling araw siya gising, and I have to sleep early coz I have work in the morning) I tried watching and playing with him till 2 am naman pero tiredness ang lola mo.- he knows I have work naman) We're close to 30's and he's not aware of time and such. Pag balik ko, pinaramdam niya na I was out of his circle. So, I walked away.

These days, I'll be closing my heart muna. I thought hindi ko maeenjoy kung ano yung ginagawa ko without them, pero mas nag-enjoy naman pala ako without them 😊. I don't know if I cling to them, or they cling to me – emotionally. At least for now, I'm happy to laugh and talk to people, practicing healthy boundaries and checking who'll stay. And I'm fine if they leave – they all have their own boundaries as well.

Yun lang, medyo okay na pala ako. There are guys who keep nudging me, but I'm firm now with boundaries 😊. We're adults, and I hope they act as one. I can be childish, but of course, sa ibang bagay lang. Sometimes it's not about "men"... sometimes I lose shielding up my boundaries and can't communicate well what I want because I'm afraid I'll lose these people. But either way pala, I'll lose them or they'll lose me 😊. One day, I'll be having cozy games and cozy hot chocolate with that person who matches with me... or I'm fine now doing cozy things na rin naman. Yun lang, wag na tayo mastuck sa brokenness and find our niche to live, a good life.

Hope you do too guys, found your niche and enjoy life!